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Pengaruh Game



Kalau nak tau, aku dilahirkan dalam keadaan agak tomboyish, sejak kecik lagi aku dah minat ngan game. Tu pun game tembak2, perang la..game pompuan ada la jugak mcm mickey mouse, game memasak gitu tapi takde la sampai main game barbie2 ni. hahaha XD

Ni pengaruh dari abang aku sbenarnya. Time tu aku still dlm umur 6-7 tahun, aku duk sbelah dia tengok dia main, so biasa la, tengok lama2 mesti ada hati try gak main kan.
So sampai la besar, aku slalu main 2-player ngan abang aku, game lawan ke.
Kawan2 dia dtg umah pun aku challenge diorang lawan ngan aku.
Bila menang, bangga gila aku. hahaha

Yang tersengih2 kat kamera aku la, duk atas riba ayah aku,
sbelah tu abang aku main game, diperhatikan oleh mak aku :)

(lokasi di rumah lama kitorang)


Tapi memang satu family aku semua kaki-game, start paling2 awal pun ayah aku yang punca kitorang minat gila kat game.
secara kronologi nye camni la dari kecik sampai skang abah takkan give up beli console game.

1) Nintendo classic
2) Playstation 1
3) Nintendo Dreamcast
4) Nintendo Gameboy
5) Playstation 2
6) Nintendo Gameboy Advanced
7) PSP
8) Playstation 3 (baru je tahun ni)

kata ayah nak beli XBOX360 lak. haha tapi tengok rezeki mencukupi boleh la.
PSP aku rosak, skrin pecah dlm tp ayah ckp nak baiki nanti,boleh la aku bawak ke kampus. hehe
tapi skang, semua tu dah takde, sebab ayah aku jual satu per satu untuk beli yg baru,
Nak beli PS2 ayah jual Dreamcast dan PS1, nak beli PS3 ayah jual PS2.
So buat masa skang, PS3 dan PSP je satu2 nya ada ngan kitorang skang.

aish, kalau nak diikutkan, dah penuh 1 almari ngan cd/dvd game saje.
usang ke tak, simpan je, dah itu dah dianggap harta pusaka family.

Dah bila aku membesar, aku tak ikut dah jejak abg aku, aku dah ada taste sndiri main game.
bila dah besar, internet dah ada, main game kat pc lak. Iaitu 'Online game'

Feveret genre aku waktu zaman sekolah menengah:

MMORPG
(Massively Multiplayer Online Role-Playing Game)

fuh sejak aku main game ni, macam2 orang dari luar negara aku kenal, mat saleh ke, tak kira.
Best siot kot. Tapi sejak tu gak, aku bleh improve english skills aku secara tak sengaja. haha

Apa2 pun, kurang dah minat aku bila dah nak habis zaman sekolah, jejak langkah masuk universiti, aku fokus kat melukis je.
Rindu dan gatal tangan nak pegang controller game tu selalu ada. tapi waktu cuti je la aku main game online ngan kawan2 lelaki aku, kawan2 pompuan habiskan cuti kat dapur, fesbuk, lepak2 gi shopping, tp aku ngadap lappy 24 jam sminggu menyumpah mati-matian kat musuh game aku. hahaaha!
tapi takde la smpai anti social ngan idup, mestilah bila kawan aku kluar lepak aku gi gak.

Aku pun nak hidup ! XD


So nak kata kitorang fanatik game ni tak jugak, tapi kitorang ni kipas-susah-mati ah!
Kalau boleh aku nak kekalkan generasi ber-game sampai mati.

Bak kata orang,
"main game je bila nak pandai? takde masa depan tau!"

ehem, iye ke, aku punya adik beradik smua kaki game, kakak2 aku dah graduate dr Universiti, kerja pun dah.
Aku ngan abang aku berjaya masuk universiti, masa depan dah tercapai.
Jangan pandang rendah kat kaki-gamers. Kitorang pun ada otak.


;)






The moment I fell for someone



I felt silly.
and ridiculous.

Love at first sight always end up a dead end.
I hate this kind of feeling the most, when I think about that person, I feel embarrassed..
Cuz he lives in a different world than mine. His friends doesn't look like the kind that would accept me in their group.

"Hahaha.."
I laughed at myself, thinking that there is no way he would fall for someone like me.
Although everytime we bump into each other and he he said hi to me and all that, I had this delusions. It's stupid.
When I think about it again, ahh.. they are just MANNERS.

Manners to be polite with someone he just met.
But that manners caused someone like me to feel 'perasan' and think he probably likes me too.

"Idiot ! Idiot ! Idiot !"
I can't fall for him. I shouldn't.
He only see me as somebody else's friend and he just doesn't want to be rude.

I have turned down many guys before, honestly..
I have hurt some of them, I'm a ass,a jerk.
I couldn't even ask them to be friends only, cuz I know what they'll think.
They will get hurt more or have more advantage to make me fall for them if we become friends anyhow.

Not gonna happen.

Same goes to my class, I see everyone as brothers and sisters.
Like me, I can't accept them. I'm hard as a steel.
I want friendship, not a relationship.

My friends supported me into these things, a love life.
But I have no confidence at all.

ah whatever..

Love is ...


BORING


Random-ing~

Morning~

Boring , a.k.a the joy-killer...
Today, is the 7th day of a mid-term school holiday..yet nothing happened, just spending your days with your family, going out shopping, eat & sleep, do the daily routines... currently I'm just listening to songs on my winamp, jamming alone and singin' ..heh

This 6th of June, my eldest sister is going to get married... and inviting my friends to come over, believe it or not, this is the first time in 17 years I've ever invited a group of friends to come over ...worst, I invited guy-friends too D| ..they're annoying and couldn't stop bothering me..nevertheless, I think it's good, since I don't think all of us can meet up again like this next years..

I'm a loner kind of person, I don't talk much especially in public, I even hate crowded places..I've said my dislikes all over and over again, even me myself started to feel annoyed by it lawl +D..

IRL INTERVIEW:
Baka-bakashiit

Why-so-serious?
Get a grip Reddy, make a change, people hate serious-people, you'll age fast.

-My mood depends on the atmosphere. There are times I can be serious and there I times I can be light. I forbid anyone who judge me liek that. And btw age is natural for everyone so you the one who's gonna get a f-king grip, mmmkay

I like the change Reddy, you're getting better

-What change? Everything is flat. Nothing goes better and nothing goes worst.

You're a genius

-Then that makes you the dumbass.

Reddy, please draw my face *puppy eyes*

Pay me.

I hate you

I love me

*bitchslap*



Reddy's : BELOW°

It was a cold, dark dawn, I felt so cold like as if it was going to burn my spines and chew my flesh. Cold feet cramped as it was like stepping on a thousand hot needles. As I was still lying on the bed, forgotten to switch off the air-conditioner that late night until, I took a glance at the cellphone clock showed it's half-past 6a.m. now. I started to wonder when did I switched off the lights, and how did I set the clock since I was fast-asleep with still light-opened that night when I just wanted to rest my eyes.

I couldn't recall anything that night. Perhaps the air-conditioner and the soothing air in my room was so comfortable that caused my body to function on it's own and also memory-loss.

This is why I have always thought that I have 2 souls living in me. And I even named our own nicks, Rusty and Reddy. Rusty means the dark-secluded-cold side of me, it only appears from time to time, I got this nick from an anime, and been using it for 5 years now. Meanwhile the main character in me, Reddy, the nickname wasn't my idea in the first place, the name was created when I was goofing around in a forum 3 years ago and me and few bunch of guys started to call each others by silly names, which was a very good moment that have made me almost forgotten that past.

However, this cold feeling is still haunting me and I don't know why everything became so difficult each day, I've been complaining about this in public but I can't help it since I don't have any else to do to let this all out. Even if I tried to say these it's not like someone is going to rescue me or something, but this is the only thing I can do to let it go.


I've changed...[?]

That's what I heard...

After I realized there's a presence of a new personality which I've never owned before..I brood a lot and trying think about it all over and over again.. how it happened?when did I become this?why I've changed? somehow all this questions are abusing my thoughts..

The person in me I used to know starts to fade, which I don't want to lose it .. what I know is that I changed because of my friends, I love to study people's behaviour,in fact, it has became my everyday hobby..as a result, I became attracted by them, what is this I don't even? ..some sort of a plague?

I do have various personalities, I've experienced them all the time..I even feel like I have 2 souls living in me... but this one is different, it's too rare... the problem is why am I still questioning my thoughts and bringing this matter up? need an answer? "I-don't-know" .

I'm curious, and I'm trying to get back on tracks, and I want to decide whether to go back to my old self or stay as I am now.. my friends like the new me , from silent-secluded-cold person to a wild-rebellious-joker.. that's huge ... but me myself couldn't even stand it, I feel so pathetic and silly.. or it could be worse ,embracing the arrogant side..

This reminds me of a poem I studied, The Road not Taken ; the meanings are deep, but I understand that the poem is trying say that there's only one path we should take.. decide which is the best: The road where it's less traveled by? Or the crowded road?
..well for me, I choose neither.

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